Eddie

My diary, Monday 11 September 2002

Well, at last it's happened.

Or almost happened, anyway.

But I still can't believe that I actually did it.

For the past hour I've been looking back through this diary - and everything I've written makes me realise now just what I've been missing.

When I read here about all the boys I've thought about - and fantasised about - for the past year, I kick myself.

To think of all the chances I haven't taken…

…and the opportunities I've missed.

Well, not any more!

Yesterday I finally did something about it.

I still can't believe what happened.

And that it all happened so quickly.

After all, it was only last week when I first heard my friends talking about the new American guy in town - the one who's bought the big house on the hill.

Of course, that meant that he must have money.

But what they also joked about was that he was prepared to share some of his money with the local boys - but at a price.

And you can guess what that was.

No-one was going to admit how they found out that particular fact - and especially whether they'd done so personally.

But I noticed that the Duarte brothers, Max and Carlos, kept quiet during the conversation.

That was odd. Normally they'd be the first to be in on a joke.

And I remembered, too, that when all the rest of us were desperately trying to raise money last month for a weekend at the beach, those two seemed to have it to burn.

So I decided that yesterday I was going to visit the house on the hill.

Not for the money.

Reaching the landing, I looked into the closest bedroom.

I could hardly believe my eyes.

There were the Duarte brothers.

Max and Carlos.

They were on the bed.

And they were not alone.

I could hear another voice in the room.

Someone I couldn't see was giving them instructions.

"Lift your right leg up, Max.

"NO, I said the right one.

"And try to smile a bit more, Carlos."

Like I said, from where I was standing I couldn't see the guy who was telling the brothers what to do.

But he sounded American.

And every so often there was a flash, too.

The guy was taking pictures of the Duartes in action.

For some time, I just stood there watching.

And enjoying.

And, luckily for me, because the guy kept stopping Max and Carlos in order to tell them what to do next, the whole thing was taking a long time.

I know - because, like all boys, we sometimes jerk off together - that Max and Carlos cum quicker than most.

But they weren't going to yesterday.

They were having to earn their money the hard way.

And it was hard for me too - but in quite a different sense.

In fact, after a while the excitement got too much for me.

But I'd wanted to come here and get involved in it all, so what the hell did it matter if anyone saw me - and what state they saw me in?

So I sat down on the floor and, as quietly as I could, began to take off my clothes.

And, all the time, I kept my eyes glued to the boys on the bed.

I didn't plan on missing a single thing.

Like I said before, I've got a lot to learn.

"Put your legs over Max's shoulders, Carlos", said the voice.

"And, Max - make sure you stick your dick in slowly… I need some good close up shots."

I was amazed - particularly when the brothers did exactly what they'd been told to do without questioning it at all.

Max was screwing Carlos!

How I wished that he was screwing me.

As I watched them, I couldn't help fingering my own overheated ass.

And by now, too, my cock was fit to burst.

Never taking my eyes off what was happening inside the room, I gripped it in my hand…

…and, nature being what it is - and boys being what they are, automatically began jerking myself off.

I guess I got so excited that I lost control.

And, as I came all over my belly, I gave an involuntary groan.

I glanced across at the bedroom, hoping that they hadn't heard me.

Or did I really hope that?

In any case, it was too late.

"Oh, dear" said the by-now familiar voice with its distinctive American twang.

"That's going to hold things up for a while, my boy.

"But in the meantime you'd better come in, clean up and get to know us just a little bit better."